Life is beautiful ladies and gentlemen and I am grateful for everyday that I wake up alive and breathing. HOWEVER these past couple of days have been hell and I will explain why. My shit started on Saturday when I did the dumbest thing ever in front of my boss at work. So for whatever reason the managers lock the discount key so when you need to give someone a discount you need to call a manager.One night we were really busy and a manager didn’t want to run back and type in his number to do the discount so he just said it over the headset. So I used it, and I used it for the rest of night when I needed it and when he couldn’t run back and type it in. So this past weekend on Saturday I need a discount so I called a manager (who was also the store owner) and then stupid me decided just to use the other manager’s number cause it would be easier and i still remembered it. So the manager gets back there and she’s like wait how did you do the discount? who’s number did you use? and I couldn’t lie because it said right on the receipt that a discount was given. So I pretty sure my face turned 50 shades of red and I told her who’s number I used. And I knew that you weren’t allowed to use a manager’s number unless you were a manager but I did it anyways. I’m still new I’ve only been working there for like 6 months and the manager just said okay you’re not allowed to use a manager’s number unless you are a certified manager, I basically just scowled. Cause in worst case senarios I could have gotten fired and manager who’s number i used could have gotten suspended. I still don’t know what possessed me to do it that when I knew the manager was coming to punch it in for me. I felt so stupid and ever since then I’ve been beating myself up about it. Monday I woke up to some bad news that I did not want to hear. A beloved neighbor of mine passed away from prostate cancer. I think he battled it for about 5 or 6 years, when he was diagnosed it was already stage 4. A few months it ago it got really bad and they found two masses in his brain, he then had a stroke and ended up half-paralyzed. He held on for a long time after that, he was definitely a fighter. He was more than just a neighbor to me. He was a friend, he was a middle school teacher of mine. He taught me so many life lessons, he changed my life for the better. I will miss him so much and this loss will be so hard. After that happened I suddenly realized that I have lost 3 people this year from cancer. My best friends mom, a neighbor of mine from our summer place, and my other neighbor. these losses have been so hard to deal with. I’ve never had to deal with so much loss and pain in my life. However these losses have taught me something. That I should wake up every morning and be excited. I should wake up and be excited that I am alive, breathing, and healthy. that no matter what mood I’m in I should be excited. I should be thankful for everyday that I am still alive, and breathing and healthy. Cause literally you are here one day and then you are gone the next. I’ve also realized that if cancer was a person I would personally stab it repeatedly. FUCK YOU CANCER. FUCK YOU for killing some of the most important people in my life. FUCK YOU for sucking the life out people who only wanted to live so badly. they fought for their life, they deserved to live it, and you took that away from them! FUCK YOU! That’s all i have to say for now, thank you for listening everyone.